I mean, that's how we do things. It's an acceptable way to judge people, I would have gotten yelled at by Nona at least if it wasn't. So it's not like I did anything wrong, I guess?
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Outside of...murdering someone. I don't know, it's complicated - it's like I get why it's fucked up and everything, but at the same time it didn't feel like a wrong thing to do.
Hmm... Well, that's not really what I meant. What do you feel about it now? Things were different back there. But you've had some time to think about it here, so what do you feel now?
...Okay, look, I've already explained a lot of why we're messed up, so I guess we might as well get the rest over with. The reason I don't do feelings is because we're not supposed to have any. At all. No emotional attachment, no sympathy, nothing, because it just gets in the way and it's going to make us suffer.
I think I'm broken or something, with regards to that, because I get pissed off a lot and I'm not as even-tempered as the rest are, but even if that's the case then it's not like I can talk to people and figure it out, you know?
So that's why I don't...know a lot of these things.
Oh... So before you showed up here you weren't supposed to have any emotions? Wow. That... I don't really know how to feel about that. I don't think that would be a good thing. I think I can get why you weren't supposed to though - how could you make fair judgements if emotions got in the way, right?
[It sounds really cold though. Nowi chews on her lip for a moment while she tries to figure out what to say.]
But you feel emotions and stuff here, right? Is it a lot different from how you were back there?
Obviously I didn't know what you were like back there and I still don't really get all of the Arbiter stuff. But I like how you are now and you're still my bestest best friend. I don't think what you did was right, but the fact that you know it was wrong is probably a good thing. I think. I wish I could help you with it, but all I can really do is listen. I don't mind doing that though!
...Sometimes listening is good enough, though. I've seen more than enough people that could have benefited from a good shake and talking to somebody about their damn issues, trust me.
I'll always be here, if you need that sorta thing! I know I can be really childish, but I'll try to be serious for you!
[Nowi's really pleased with that though and she's beaming again.]
And of course you're my friend! I mean, like I said, people make a lot of mistakes. It's not like I've been perfectly good all my life! Though that was more... because I had to and because I'm kinda serving in an army. But... I think it's really important not to get totally torn up over mistakes like that. Yeah, it's bad. I'm not gonna try to say it isn't. But that's not gonna change how I think about you. Especially since you know it was wrong and you're conflicted about the whole thing.
Ahhh, really? Yeah, let's play something! Oh, you've still got a bunch of games to teach me, right? Are you feeling patient enough to try to teach me one tonight?
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[He's sort of headtilting, though.]
I mean, that's how we do things. It's an acceptable way to judge people, I would have gotten yelled at by Nona at least if it wasn't. So it's not like I did anything wrong, I guess?
[...]
Outside of...murdering someone. I don't know, it's complicated - it's like I get why it's fucked up and everything, but at the same time it didn't feel like a wrong thing to do.
I'm not good at this whole feelings thing.
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[...]
...Okay, look, I've already explained a lot of why we're messed up, so I guess we might as well get the rest over with. The reason I don't do feelings is because we're not supposed to have any. At all. No emotional attachment, no sympathy, nothing, because it just gets in the way and it's going to make us suffer.
I think I'm broken or something, with regards to that, because I get pissed off a lot and I'm not as even-tempered as the rest are, but even if that's the case then it's not like I can talk to people and figure it out, you know?
So that's why I don't...know a lot of these things.
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[It sounds really cold though. Nowi chews on her lip for a moment while she tries to figure out what to say.]
But you feel emotions and stuff here, right? Is it a lot different from how you were back there?
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[...Ginti, that's kind of...]
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[SHRUG]
Obviously I didn't know what you were like back there and I still don't really get all of the Arbiter stuff. But I like how you are now and you're still my bestest best friend. I don't think what you did was right, but the fact that you know it was wrong is probably a good thing. I think. I wish I could help you with it, but all I can really do is listen. I don't mind doing that though!
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So thanks. For that.
[...]
All of...that. The friend thing too, I guess.
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[Nowi's really pleased with that though and she's beaming again.]
And of course you're my friend! I mean, like I said, people make a lot of mistakes. It's not like I've been perfectly good all my life! Though that was more... because I had to and because I'm kinda serving in an army. But... I think it's really important not to get totally torn up over mistakes like that. Yeah, it's bad. I'm not gonna try to say it isn't. But that's not gonna change how I think about you. Especially since you know it was wrong and you're conflicted about the whole thing.
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[...]
So are you wanting to play something or what? I owe you one after all this, and it's not like I don't have all damn night.
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[That's teasing though, because of course it is.]
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[AND DOWN THE TREE SHE GOES she's a little excited, okay]